now i wanna scribble a lot. it has been days together i was postponing this. the first event is obviously the exams. exams! exams! exams!! and its because & only because of him that I’ve passed. i knew he accepts me as a whole. but this is pretty much more than that.
he has lead me all through my pains. he bore all those storms of my outbursts & yet! and yet he didnot complain!! and when i pointed this to him he says its not a problem!! is that so? may be…. and may not be…… but what he has done is not because of the youthful infatuation but a mature commitment. i knew that would be so 3yrs back when we were attached to each other. but still, i didn’t know that this would move me so much.
“u moved so slowly & noiselessly into my life and filled the previously imperceptible void so wholly so neatly….. just like the the air and now my dear soulmate! i can feel u moving around me like a refreshing breeze, i can feel u getting into me like mild fragrance of tender lavenders, i can feel u all through me in the form of oxygen. now my dear, i owe u something. the only thing that i can give in full, which contains ‘me’ entirely and no one else. its not my life darling, its ME. i know u’ll accept me as i am. now i give u myself…… my soul, my thought, my possessions. i give u myself with all my aroma – the fragrance and pungency, all my color – the brighter and darker shades, all my texture – the smoothness and roughness, all my ornaments – the gems and junk. i give u myself wholly and completely – take all my precious virtues and dont forget the vile vices in me. i can give u all this and only this, but as i always say, my soulmate! it might be a boon as well as a curse, i might be a mascot or jinx……. but i know u want me…. and now i give u everything in me. i promise u, if i ever have a man in my life it would be u and only u…… my man…… my soulmate.“
I PROMISE
