time 12.00am. and i’m stressed out. i feel weak. no. whats this?? there’s nothing lost…… its ok. ICAN DO IT. I CAN DO IT. I CAN DO IT. I CAN DO IT. YES I CAN. I WILL. I NEED TO. C’MON APARNA! GO AHEAD.
Its my passion. a genuine passion will never leave the task undone. MINE IS A GENUINE PASSION.
A new week again. i dont understand why time flies away soooo fast when i need it the most!! atlast i think i kinda started being near to something called RESPONSIBLE. i should admit, i’m glad with it, if not overjoyed. this kinda feeling always intoxicates me and makes things worse!! 
lets see what would happen next! i wish i’ll do it well. after all, ITS ABSOLUTELY NOT ENOUGH.
Let me wish!! a strong determination can reveal the true ME
APARNA, its the power in you that has to make this struggle end in a placid way….. the struggle for earning the designation as a DOCTOR. its not just a target…….. its not just a desire…… its not just a wish…… its not just a dream…….. ITS YOUR PRIMARY NECESSITY, ITS YOUR DESTINY, ITS YOUR WAY OF LIFE. its not just because its a respectable profession that I’ve chosen it. there’s something much beyond these worldly reasons…… its much more abstract that cannot be understood unless it’s felt. all this is my destiny. something planned for me, something designed for me. its something life gifted me with. now its my turn to get it going, to make it splendid, to internalize it and make it my own way. APARNA, mind you!! its just in your tiny little hands TO MAKE IT OR BREAK IT!! i have to choose wisely, not between the choices, for that’s sooo sooo crystal clear, its between actions intended to lead to the right choice. I’LL DO IT. I CAN DO IT.
its my duty, its my profession, its my passion. ITS MY WAY OF LIFE.
All the frustrations are to be kept aside while the working week. i know i’m not a machine, i know i feel and i cant stop feeling…….. but i have to keep all these aside and thats what is the emotional intelligence……. hope i’ll use, rather expliot it.
I desperately wish to please myself and for that I HAVE VERY VERY SHORT TIME……. LESS THAN A MONTH……. ONLY UPTO 6TH NOVEMBER, my birthday. i think i cant cerebrate my birth if i don’t find a purpose in my life…….. being honest to myself….. being true to my childhood dreams…. being responsible about my goals, plans and destinations.
SETTING STANDARDS IS NOT JUST ENOUGH. Don’t stop after the target is set…….. just hit it hard……. hard till the end of your strength, hard enough to reach the place where your dreams exist, into the dark deep skies.
A WAY THROUGH THE WOODS
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
-Robert Frost
